42 days until I will be on plane flying towards Kenya, Africa. What the what? Am I excited? Yes, but mostly terrified. I think it's good for me though. To feel incredibly incompetent. I think it's good for me that right now I am confident I could not do this alone. That I am in terrible need of my Jesus to guide me through these 7 weeks this summer. Too often I forget the need for him. God again and again is putting me in these situations that force to me surrender and cling to his cross. So yes, I am fearful but on the road to his contentment. I am learning what it means to not dwell in these fears, open my eyes and see how huge and righteous our God is.
Jesus, let me not shudder at my worldly fears. Open my eyes to see your mighty hand in my life. I know you have called me here and you promise that you will never leave me. Give me a heart that is abundant in trust and faith. Give me a heart that overflows with hope even as I see this world's injustice. Teach me to be your hands and feet this summer.
amen.
